"Hard to get to know..."

I love myspace. I've reunited with many friends that I thought were long lost. I keep in touch with family and distant friends, because it's so much easier than finding a moment to call when it won't be crazy loud in my house. (which it always is) I put a 'truth box' on my space and it's pretty fun. Usually people leave pretty nice things on there that are uplifting. Joe and I use our truth boxes to mess with each other leaving messages like: "you suck" or "you're gay". Don't worry, it's all in good fun and we mutually understand that. We've also left some pretty heartfelt messages for each other as well. About a month ago I read a comment that was sweet, and saddening. I have no idea who it's from, because the whole point of the truth box is to leave messages anonymously. There's no way of finding out who wrote it. The message was, and I'm paraphrasing: ' I wish we knew each other better. You are a great mother and wife. Probably very funny but hard to get to know.' (Not exact words but somewhere along those lines.) Hard to get to know. I have pondered over this phrase for the entire month. Sadly, it's not the first time I've heard it. I've been told by friends of mine that people feel I am 'stand-off-ish'. Friends have also told me, people have told them, they think I don't like them. Which is (mostly) untrue. I have had this issue since high school. It's saddening to know that I give off this impression. I have always thought of myself as a friendly person. Not that any one's denied that, but I guess there's a fine line between being just friendly... and... I don't know. I truly care about the people around me, and try to let them know. I keep up on the state of their families, and always try to remember birthdays. Truth told, I miss all of my relocated friends terribly, and do have moments of loneliness when I'd like to stop by their house, or make a trip to the mall. I've also always been a very open and honest person. If you ask me a question, I will not lie. I'm not proud of everything I've done in my life, but I would never deny it. So for that, I'd say I'm pretty easy to get to know. However the consensus says differently. I really am an open book, I have an open mind, and an open heart. I listen when people speak, and value every life. I'm not sure how to fix this long standing impression of me, but I'd like to. It's definitely not who I am, or who I want to be. So, if you also find me "hard to get to know", feel free and ask me anything you'd like. Feel free to call and talk about nothing, or everything. Feel free to email. And if I've never taken the first step toward friendship, I'm sorry. I promise it's not personal, it's just me(apparently). I am trying to be better at it. Hopefully, someday soon I'll be able to shake this and put forth my true self.